Getting away from it

At a Tim Horton’s, we ordered coffee, I ordered a doughnut. Denise wouldn’t have doughnuts. She seemed a little upset. I later found it was because she had visited her mother and became victim of her latest insensitive remarks.
“Why do you bother visiting your mom if all she does is hurt your feelings,” I [...]

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How To Be a Self-made-man with no choice

There are the Horatio Algers of this world, who have built for themselves a high degree of success by hard work. Such examples are rare. There are others, however, who have no choice, and have to build their lives up from scratch. They just come from negativity and have nowhere to go but in the [...]

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Story fragment #1

Philo was working late again. But the payoff was that he could have the next day all for himself. He wanted to beat his next-day deadline and have his sales forecast all ready by the this evening. He put the finishing touches on his spreadsheets, and imported the tables to word preocessor.  Then, after emailing [...]

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The eternal sunshine of a spotless debt record

A few minutes ago, I finally, after about 5 years of trying, paid off my debts with the bank, including my line of credit and my credit card. There were times the debt climbed to a nearly unmanageable $10,000 dollars, but after working like a bugger to pay it down, it finally got paid down, [...]

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Murder at the hot dog carts

Well, I was making a bit of money selling hot dogs at one of those portable vending units near some night clubs. One night, Daryl and Morton, two regulars I knew came outside and stood in line up for a hot dog, then decided to fight over this girl they met while inside. Neither guy [...]

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Learning in its purest form

Once I romanticised learning in its purest form as being a learning done for the pure love of it. I would like to think of my childhood as being like that. But I know that the reality of my childhood was characterized by being one of intellectual vapidity outside of my pursuits, so that my [...]

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Some of what I do here

Some of what I do is to fictionalise my past and make it less boring and more spicy and readable. I find this blog to be a vehicle for practising this craft of writing fiction.
I am 45 years old, so a lot of my past have faded into a dull memory. Even reading diary entries [...]

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Completely believing people’s wildest stories

I’m into totally believing every story people tell me about themselves. Sometimes, when people tell me their problems, it’s complete horse-crap, with only the flimsiest relation to reality. But I sit in wide-eyed fascination of these artistic bullshitters. I’m just along for the ride, and sitting and listening to these tall tales aren’t really going [...]

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Friends and friend-oids

I have a lot of “friend-oids” and few friends. I think that is like most of us. If we are honest, we may have a friend — two or three if we are very lucky — I think I have two if I count my wife.
Others live on the periphery, and they are people that [...]

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A not-so-strange strange stranger

We were sitting quietly in the waiting area, waiting for legal aid. At first, I didn’t recogsnise her. She was tall, her long legs made to look even longer in her high-heel patent leather boots. She also wore tight black jean slacks, an old fur waistcoat, and way too much makeup. That, along with the [...]

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Tammy and I had a couple of things in common

We both wrote — she wrote poetry, and I tended to write prose like this. I found her interesting in a way. But there was something dull about Tammy; something wishy-washy. It infected her poetry and her music. Yes, she also played guitar better than I could, and sang quite well. But her emotions were [...]

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On Cheesburgers, love and loving cheeseburgers

Hmm… I am not sure that I would agree that every relationship can be healthy. Just like knowing cheeseburgers are unhealthy doesn’t make them healthy. Similarly, if a person reacts to me in a negative way too often, I don’t think the secret would be to anticipate their negativity and to “socially engineer” only positive [...]

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With love, without love

We are all different. Some people have certain properties about themselves that arise from an interplay between genes and environment which confers upon them certain strengths but gives them some vulnerabilities.
This gives us each a unique set of needs arising from our environment, and from its interplay between that and our physical being. Indeed, we [...]

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